What have you forgotten about yourself, what truth have you
been denying?
I forgot I was a Master Manifester.
I had the pleasure recently of receiving some free coaching
at work. After I went through my back
story, I was reminded that I was a Master Manifester and that I could still
manifest whatever I wanted to attain now…. This was a revelation to me, I had
forgotten about my achievements of the past. I had lost connection to the magic
of what I made manifest.
I revealed to the coach how I was a single mother, who went to
university with a 4 year old son in tow, how I left university and got a job as
an IT professional. I had achieved my goal.
The goal amazingly was that I wanted to take my darling son on holiday.
I wanted to afford a holiday that didn’t involve buying a national tabloid
newspaper and collecting tokens for three months. My son deserved so much more than a weekend
in Skegness at a holiday camp, so to take my son on the ultimate holiday to me
meant taking him across the pond to the USA to party with Donald, Mickey, Daisy
and co.
So here I was a mother and her son, living courtesy of the
tax payer with a big bodacious goal of taking my son on this epic
adventure. Although it was a big goal at
the time, at no point did it seem silly, pointless or unattainable. I had such
a strong drive and belief that I could do this for my son. I didn’t write the
goal down, create a vision board, do visualisation exercises around it, I
didn’t pray on it, proclaim it or talk about it; it was a calm and gentle inner
knowing.
I had worked before having my son at the ripe old age of 21,
I was an administration officer for an examination board, so I was used to
working and taking care of myself. But the salary I earned at as admin officer
was not going to get my son on that plane. After childcare and general living
expenses there wouldn’t be anything to put into the holiday fund. I needed a change in career…
I bought the Guardian newspaper and leafed through the
‘position vacant’ section and noticed that a lot of the well paid jobs involved
IT in some way or another. Boom… my mind
was made up; I was going to do an IT degree. I found a one year access to
university course that was tied to an IT degree course. I completed the course,
went to university and studied my socks off for 3 years, whilst working every
weekend at a national DIY store. I got a 2:1 in Information Management &
Business IT.
I applied for one job, and got that job and started work at
an IT professional within 6 weeks of leaving university. By the end of summer
holidays, guess what? My son and I had spent 2 weeks hanging out with the
Disney crew.
Looking back and upon reflection I was a master manifester,
but I didn’t realise it then. I thought my choices and the steps I took to
achieve them was no big thing. I never
ever took the time to stand back and take stock of what I had achieved; I just
thought it was run of the mill stuff that anyone could do it, so me doing it
wasn’t anything to rave about.
Although I was giving
thanks for getting my degree, getting a job, the holiday etc… I didn’t see my
achievement as an achievement; I just saw it as part of the course. Nothing to
really acknowledge, appreciate or celebrate.
Even when I learned that my 1st IT manager gave
me the job because to be a full time mother, full time student and part time
employee and juggle all successfully meant I had something within me. I had no
appreciation of this thing within me. I had no appreciation of me. When someone
tried to give me a pat on the back for my success, I could not see how I
deserved praise for that.
That comment from the coach at work jolted awake something
within me. I could finally see the journey I took, what I overcame and how I was
connected to the goal and the process of achievement. Where did Patricia the Master Manifester
go? Nowhere, I just went into hiding,
lost connection to me, the inner me. I
was operating from the outside, not calling upon my pool of inner resources
Fast forward to now,
am I more appreciative of me, yes, it’s a work in progress. I recently did an
inventory of all the things I did and I now realise that I have accomplished quite
a bit and I am having a little ‘me’ celebration. I can now say I am proud of me for what I
chose to do, I am patting myself on the back and doing the running man in my
bedroom when no one is looking.
As I reflect, I am remembering and capturing my heart and mind-set
and I am amazed at how simple I made it then. I just decided what I wanted to
do, set my inner compass in that direction and off I went. I trusted me, my decisions
and stayed connected to that inner knowing.
Going forward with that knowledge coupled with appreciation
for my past journey successes I am welcoming the opportunity to once again consciously
create and manifest. I am welcoming the opportunity to recognise what I am
doing and congratulate me. That inner
knowing has become an outer smile that I wear with pride.
I would love to know what you have recently remembered about you. Some magic you recently unearthed. Please feel free to comment below....
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